Living in Shadows

Today has been an off day for me. I mean it was really great but I feel horrible inside. This is just one of those days when I feel like I can't do anything. I'm not really good at anything...I can't play sports or any type of game without failing miserably.

I always feel like I'm living in the shadow of everyone else. First there's Britany... I love her so much, but sometimes it is hard being her little sister. It seems like she is good at everything and is so beautiful. She takes everything that I try and perfects it. Then there are my friends. I love them too. My best friend is super smart and pretty while another one is just plain gorgeous. Sometimes when I start doing something they have to go an make it theirs too. For example, I love Colleen Coble, she is an amazing author. I started getting really into her first then one of them has to go and get some. That was MY thing... I feel like that happens to me a lot.l There is not one thing that is just Courtney. Everyone else has their certain niche.

I just want to step out of the shadows but I don't know how.

"I'll dissolve when the rain pours in,
When the nightmares take me,
I will scream with the howling wind,
'Cause it's a bitter world and I'd rather dream."

Courts Mcgee